THIS. IS. CRAZY.

You crazy ass, son of a bitch….what have you just committed yourself to doing?! YOU CRAZY ASS, SON OF A BITCH!!!

With only 31 days left in the “real world”, I am finding myself becoming more and more anxious, impatient and full of second guesses. THIS. IS. CRAZY. I am about to start the adventure of a lifetime, that few ever get the opportunity to attempt and one that millions will only be able to dream of doing. THIS. IS. CRAZY. However, this upcoming adventure isn’t without its share of pre-trail stress, anxiety and excitement. THIS. IS. CRAZY.

My biggest fear at this time is not completing the 2,190.3 mile trek from Georgia to Maine that I have committed to hiking. Not only would this be a huge personal failure, but I would also be letting down a lot of other people who are supporting me and my crazy dream of thru hiking the Appalachian Trail. Self accountability is and always has been a HUGE opportunity for my personal growth and I hope I find new ways to hold myself accountable for my commitments and actions.

I am hiking the trail solo, but will undoubtedly find new friends along the way. Starting such a MAMMOTH-SIZED undertaking alone worries me for a reason that may sound completely INSANE to some: THIS IS COMPLETELY VOLUNTARY. There will be no boss calling me asking why Im still asleep and not hiking, there will be no posse of friends giving me shit for taking a zero, then nero, then zero again and not making miles, there will be no Mom reminding me that I have daily goals to meet and to make sure I remember to check my nether regions for ticks. I WILL BE 100% responsible and directly accountable for my daily and overall success of this hike. THIS. IS. CRAZY.