Knocking Knees: The ACL Rupturing Kind
Some thoughts on knee problems, recovery, and trekking from a girl with three ACL surgeries.
Over the last few years, I’ve heard some whisperings and thoughts from people who suffer from knee problems and injuries. When I discuss my PCT goals, I sometimes hear in return how some people would love to take this adventure, but they believe their knee problems or injuries hold them back. Shy, I usually don’t talk too much about my knee experiences, but I recently decided that part of who I am is defined by these physical setbacks. I cannot advise anyone on their own injuries or tell them to ignore doctors, but maybe my views and memories can inspire others.
Here Are the Facts
The anterior cruciate ligament, or ACL, is one of four ligaments in the knee to control excessive motion by limitation of joint mobility. The ACL is the main tendon in retraining the force to the tibia and it is statistically the most injured ligament of the four.
Recovery of ACL injuries requires at least four to six months after surgery.
After three surgeries, hiking has become my main sport.
Five Reasons Why Knee Injuries Have Prepared Me for the PCT
1.) Facing failure
My body has broken down. I was now different. I can no longer do the same things I usually do. A long, tough journey now lies in front of me. Realizing how much was actually out of my control helped me finally forgive myself. Some days are just not your days and failing does not mean you have to give up.
2.) Physical endurance
I just can’t, I am out of energy, and everything hurts. At times I said these words out loud, but most often I kept them inside and just kept going. Reset. After knee surgery, your leg is reset to an infant’s level of muscle mass and you have to rebuild. Recovery and physical therapy are the tallest mountains to climb. The entire process has to be purely self-motivated. If you have ever gone through a rehabilitation process, then you know how hard it is to start at ground zero. For many, not only a reasonable amount of strength must be regained, but trying to get back to a peak condition takes an enormous amount of dedication, time, and work.
3.) Mental endurance
Why can’t I just stop and give up. Mental strength can really only be realized after a hard process. Doing the same exercises every day and motivating yourself to be consistent is so hard. Mostly because you’re bored and the only reason for doing such mundane exercises is to eventually run, sprint, and jump into adventure. Spending hours and hours stationary biking, squatting, and balancing are not very interesting. But you do it anyway, because at the end of the day, running down a rock-strewn path and dodging through trees is way worth it.
OK, so not actually physically alone. But if you are declining invitations to take adventures, hike, climb, or activities that require running, then it’s pretty darn lonely inside watching TV. Therefore, going through a recovery for any type of injury is a lonely one. Coping with that isolation, well, it yields a stronger you. You have successfully self-supported yourself mentally through a difficult process. Hiking the PCT, well, that shouldn’t be quite as lonely as watching all your friends physically run ahead of you, while you limp slowly to a bench and sit down.
5.) Understanding pain
The surgery is painful. The recovery is painful. Physical therapy is painful. However, these pains eventually get sorted into different categories of stretchy, healing, or dangerous pain. When restarting from pretty much zero muscle mass, as you recover, you better understand your body. And once recovered, you may come to better understand your threshold of when to stop for your own good versus pushing through.
I used to be embarrassed by my many knee surgeries. I suppose it was the idea of failure. I injured myself not once, but three times. Therefore, this fact probably suggests that either I’ve made some bad judgments, or that I’ve never learned from my mistakes. However, after years of recovery, I finally forgave myself for failing over and over. Knee injuries can be prevented, but sometimes, crap happens.
My Injury Entries
Scene 1: I was 16 years old, coming off playing my first season of varsity soccer.
A girl slid behind me and stuck her feet between mine. The soccer ball sprang loose. We both chased after it, trying to win the squabble. Sliding on her thigh, the girl swept my legs, popping the ball out. I was on my butt, blood pulsing in my forehead. There was something very wrong. My right knee throbbed. The pain felt like a badly rolled ankle, but at my knee joint. I rolled on to hands and feet and stood. My weight gave out as I stepped forward with my right foot. I buckled. Limping, I made it to the indoor soccer box for a sub. After a few minutes the pain numbed. I felt ready to go back out. I ran out on to the artificial field, planted my right foot, and turned.
Scene 2: I was almost 18 years old, attending an evening Ultimate Frisbee practice
My team was in a defensive zone formation. I was in the backfield, keeping an eye on a random receiver. The frisbee was thrown between players and suddenly I was out of position. A receiver made a break for it toward the end zone. I watched as the frisbee was thrown, streaking toward the goal line. I sprinted after the other player. I found I was faster than she was. My feet were in stride with hers. To maneuver around her, I tried to sidestep to the right, but instead my cleat hit the back of her shoe. She tripped and fell forward. My legs were taken out. Pain pierced through my right knee. Well, all I could think was, not again, please not again. I limped off the field to call my mom with the bad news.
Scene 3: I was 20 years old, finally feeling confident enough to play some intramural soccer.
I had lost a lot of foot coordination, but I was excited to try again at a sport I left behind. Everyone would be at a very low skill level and most have never really played before. So I ran to an open spot, got a pass, and tried my best to dribble the ball toward the goal. I set myself up to make a long pass across the field. My left foot came down as my right was lining up with the ball. My left knee hyperextended. Pain shot up my leg and I buckled. I got up and limped to my car. I went home and lay down. Already, I knew what happened. This time, my left knee had blown out.
Where I am Now?
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